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Clues Of My Existence

by Dave Desmelik

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1.
What If? 03:47
What if? life isn't short, but life is long You won't remember this song What if? the grass is greener on the other side and the wise men all lied What if? the eternal sky is full of mirrors Would we see clearer? What if? time and space is really a fraud Please hold your applause Some people smile when they meet a kid Most people think they're interesting too What if? you burned it all down at the end of the day Then just walked away What if? you woke up alone and built it back up I wish you good luck What if? water is wine and the darkness is light When day becomes night What if? nothing is real there's no brink of disaster Or life ever after Some people smile when they meet a kid Most people think they're interesting too
2.
I was born with two legs that didn't work It was nobody's fault it must have been fate Spent my youth seeking my father's smile No approval turned to hate Everywhere I go I look up I have no choice But my eyes are sharp and my hearing is keen I may be a cripple from the waist down to my toes But I know what I've heard and I know what I've seen Let me be... in my misery I want to sing... but I just scream I scream out loud when no one else is around Just wait and see... I'll be king... an angry king From early on the rage would build and I'd push it down I pushed it down so far it stole my youth In my heart of heart of hearts I cried A volcano on the verge I knew Don't underestimate me in my mind you're dead I've killed you over a thousand times No one believes me but I am my father's pride His blood runs through this legacy of mine Let me be... in my misery I want to sing... but I just scream I scream out loud when no one else is around Just wait and see... I'll be king... an angry king
3.
Sun Dog 05:12
You may have glimpses of the obvious Does it make you curious? Does it make you bold? You might be in between the balance Of goodwill and malice as it unfolds You could be fading from the picture Losing your color inside the frame You sometimes hear the past come calling It's slowly rolling all the same When you get spoken to, you're told to do what you must So you pretend you're free, free to do what you want I've let the shadows be my shelter I've braved the weather hiding in plain sight I've given everything and nothing But that's still something, is that not right? I have been guilty of over-thinking Of over-drinking and it brings me down But I've left some CLUES OF MY EXISTENCE Both near and distant look at the sounds When I get spoken to, I'm told to do what I must So I pretend I'm free, free to do what I want We go about our daily business With no resistance to sights unseen We bow our heads in blind condition With no ambition of coming clean We've gone away from pen and paper And Mother Nature she knows her name We might be nothing but a sun dog Another raindrop damn pride and shame When we get spoken to, we're told to do what we must So we pretend we're free, free to do what we want
4.
Sabotage 03:51
Sabotage... sabotage... just because... what it was Quiet nod... desperate dodge... a mirage... sabotage When you are not speaking you are still thinking about your thoughts When you get lonely, you're not the only sad lost cause Sabotage... sabotage... just because... what it was Silent nod... desperate dodge... a mirage... sabotage Even when you're winning your head keeps spinning with doubtful thoughts When you climb upward, you're moving forward but really you are not Sabotage... sabotage... just because... what it was Quiet nod... desperate dodge... a mirage... sabotage
5.
Rain Love 06:47
How do you fix your sinking ship, so you don't drown? Where do you crash land your plane when it's going down? Going down... How do you stop a train with no brakes on your track? Why do you not give up on me and turn your back? Turn your back... It's Love and Light and Time and Rain How do you keep your heart from breaking in two? When do you let the pain take away all that you knew? All you knew... It's Love and Light and Time and Rain
6.
In the curl of the waves, upon an unknown ship On an endless sea, say good-bye With the twist of the wind, hides the blatant truth On a jet stream ride, say good-bye Everything brings what it brings Apathy reign over me You can tell, but you can't tell Vision speaks In the curve of the earth, grows the natural seed On an empty hill, say good-bye In the dark of the night, lonely vessel sails On an ocean deep, say good-bye All these things are in between Honesty rain over me You can tell, but you can't tell Vision speaks
7.
The Farce 03:57
Looking back now it all makes sense The goddamn trouble is it never left The degradation and the fucking shame If you insist on going there to give it a name Jesus Christ if he were real Would he even care how you feel? Or would he backtrack slowly and then duck away? So he could live to see another day Or maybe he'd just sit there and watch you cry All high and mighty with a cunning smile So you want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die I'm gonna throw a party and let the demons in Let 'em be free to embrace the sin We'll drink all night and raise some hell Forget the past and piss in the wishing well The devil himself, he'll be there too And Mary and Joseph can finally tell the truth How she got knocked up through an act of love And Joseph was the one, not the hand of God And maybe we'll sit there and watch you cry 'It's a glorious day" says Jesus as he winks his eye So you want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die You want to go to heaven, but you're scared to die
8.
Revealed 03:41
Road signs... be kind... meantime New start... tired heart... torn apart Slight bend... dead end... suffering The bones of the past are revealed Even now it's all so surreal I will not abandon you, I will not abandon you I will not fear the truth, I will not abandon you Old school... wise fool... barstools Midnight... lamplight... second sight Untamed... tear-stained... endgame The bones of the past are revealed Even now I don't know what to feel But I will not abandon you, I will not abandon you I will not fear the truth, I will not abandon you
9.
Water is words, action is stone Nothing gets heard, nothing gets done He said to her, she said to him We are where we were, the future's a gift But it's alright, despite the complications Eroding old foundations, we share the same sunlight And it's ok, friendships are suspended Feelings get defended, we still all live and die Faith paper thin is thicker than steel Bones, flesh and skin, life is a wheel We said to them, they said to us Lean to the bend, do what you must But it's alright, beware the revolution The poetry solution, we share the same night sky And it's ok, against the sad division Impending collision, we still all live and die Water is words, action is stone Nothing is learned, nothing is known

about

A journeyman musician with a troubadour’s soul, Dave Desmelik is a veteran singer/songwriter and instrumentalist based in Brevard, North Carolina, USA. A native of the American South, Desmelik is a natural-born storyteller with an ear to the heartbeat of the everyday world and its flawed people. Clues Of My Existence is his 16th independent release of all original material.

Clues Of My Existence reflects Desmelik’s signature melding of Americana, folk, and alt-country; the lyrics and instrumentation showcase his impressive range. Consider the hint of rock guitar in “Ivar the Boneless,” Desmelik’s nod to a character on ‘Vikings’, an acclaimed television series created in part from medieval Norse legend: “Everywhere I go I look up I have no choice, but my eyes are sharp and my hearing is keen, I may be a cripple from the waist down to my toes, but I know what I’ve heard and I know what I’ve seen.” Pair it with an aching plea and the campfire twang of pedal steel guitar in “Rain Love”: “How do you fix your sinking ship, so you don’t drown? Where do you crash land your plane when it’s going down?” It’s a song so bitterly gorgeous it belongs on the soundtrack of a modern western, playing as a fire crackles beneath the dregs of a cold sunset, rough-hewn men grown lonesome.

Though intensely personal, Desmelik’s music does what only true art can: it connects us—no matter its subject or theme—to our shared human experience. Listening, we feel in our bones that this man knows us, that he gives voice to the feelings we often find unutterable.

Desmelik composes and plays the poetry of his heart: at times with the wide-open rollick of an epic, and at others with the rawness of an artist who has lived with the dark and is brave enough to tell of it. Always, Desmelik is unflinchingly authentic and deep-feeling, his range layered and long. Like the troubadours of old, he sings with a rare freedom, capable of juxtaposing the brutal and the beautiful in his music—a storyteller for our time.
- Katherine Scott Crawford (award-winning novelist)

credits

released December 30, 2021

*Dave Desmelik - vocal, acoustic and electric guitar, cigar box guitar,
baritone ukulele, banjo, keys
*Nolan McKelvey - vocal, upright bass guitar
*Ron James - drums and percussion
*Brad Bays - vocal (4, 6, 8), acoustic guitar (4, 8, 9), electric guitar (6)
*Steve Mayone - vocal (7), electric and baritone guitar (3, 7),
lap steel and tremolo guitar (7)
*David Philips - electric guitar (1)
*Ryan Stigmon - pedal steel guitar (5)
*Tim Hogan - electric bass guitar (9)

Recorded and mixed by Dave Desmelik at JWH Sound Room (Penrose, NC)
Also recorded at various locations, near and distant by
contributing musicians
Mastered by Tim Hogan at Kyberdog Studio (Flagstaff, AZ)

All songs Dave Desmelik (BMI) 2021

For more info please visit davedesmelikmusic.com

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